♥

i love the way you call me by my name, even though you hardly spelled out my nick
i love it when you called me up by phone, just to clear out issues
i love it when you touch my face before kissing me sweetly
i love it when you whisper lyrics of songs when we go out videoke
i love it when you share stories from you relatives which involves me
i love it when you make plans on introducing me to your family
i love it when you lie your head on my shoulders
i love it when you squeeze my arm like you can't get enough of it
i love it when you hug me from behind
i love it when we slept together (hehe) and let me sleep in your arms
i love it when we kiss in public, sweet
i love it when you shut up when my mood swings
i love it when you remind me to get on the 'diet' thing
i love it when you get naughty
i love it when you say 'i love you' and mean it
i love it when you trust me
i love it when i feel secured on you
i love it when you say i am beautiful despite the sweat

and i love the me, when i am with you
i love you michael

GET HIGH ON ♥

It's the first month of 2012, and i think i am really into it. It kinda made me think if this is going to work out. Then i recall what I've promised to myself last year, "NEVER LOOK FOR LOVE THIS 2012...LET IT BE"

And then, there you are. Owning a broken heart.
oooohhh boy, i'm so into you, let's not take it in a rush and please,
could it be you now? ♥

WHAT IS THE COLOR OF LOVE ?

It’s a gloomy Saturday morning for me. The day after the “return of the bad girl”. I can’t help thinking where, how it started and who cause me to act this way. All I can remember is I’ve been doing this for how many years, keep doing things all over again, reflecting, having regrets, crying… and yet booom, here I go again.

Last night was terrible. But i don’t know if it equates to the awful experiences I had before, I mean the emotion. I guess before was the worst thing (half dead caused by the most beautiful person whom I wanted to share my life with), but I don’t remember the feelings then. Last night was totally empty, like I wanted to go somewhere else, in a jam-packed room, a busy crowded place where people tend to enjoy life like they don’t have any tomorrow. The music echoes in every wall of the room, and you feel like dancing like a pro. Drinks are everywhere, and spilling it out just to feel like doing it. And everyone is happy, except me. And in the middle of nowhere, I find myself buying a chocolate drink in a local store with a mind floating. Like what they say, chocolates are good for desperate people, but as soon as I emptied mine, damn nothing change.

I’M SO HIGH. Right at this moment. I wanna feel like dancing and dancing and dancing. (on track: Baby It’s You, Jojo)

---------------ooo-----------------------ooo-----------------------ooo----------------ooo

...DARN !!! that was outdated. more than two weeks ago. HAHA!

i'm about to start writing and planning my life (again and again and again 10000x1000) but as soon i wanted to write stuffs here, i go back to the sofa and better watch tv shows than reminiscing those shitloads things (sorry on that). it's better for me not to plan things... that might work.

this year was a blast. really. from places i wanted to go (two out of the many), to the boys i wanted to own (betch, haha!) and yeah, the only thing left was me and my silly broken heart. from D - who i thought would be my dreamlover, to A - who never showed up the next day and G - who would marry me unless i loose weight. HAHA. ooohh boys, spare me. but atleast, i wouldn't anymore be daydreaming and building futures with you [[: and atleast, you contributed something in me, you jerk!

I JUST WANTED TO BE HAPPY AND I DON'T WANNA BE LONELY [[:

I STILL GO CRAZY

no, it just AiN'T TRUE :[[

i hate karaoke, i hate love songs, the one with "i get lost in your eyes" thing? rawr. i hate hearing guys having good voice. i hate seeing my sun phone. i hate passing tionko st. i hate realizing he's just a few walks away. i hate looking his facebook page. i hate his name on my phone. i hate imagining his face. i hate this feeling and the most, i hate him.

HUSH... just now, just now !!!

I HAVE TO...

i have to write something about

a. my trip to ILOILO

b. my summer vacation 2011

c. my suitors (haha. plural ok?)

d. my work

WOOOOH !!! inspire me please ?!

I WANNA GO SOLO

THE SECOND TIME I WENT TO CEBU, i was alone. But that doesn't mean somethings wrong. The real thing was only to experience the skyride at crown regency where i never had a chance on my first trip (may 2009) with my mom. My second trip was on December 2009. 'twas really a planned vacation sine i have to accompany my sis-in-law, my nephew and niece for their trip to dxb. Since it was a DVO-CBU-DXB trip, might as well spent the rest of the days at cebu, again, ALONE.. I had a real good time for 3 days. I was able to experience and understand the beauty of being alone in a place where i was so clueless, planning a day and even arguing with myself which way to go, haha. darn! It was fun really. Even got frightened hearing an explosive while walking the city streets realizing later on that it was Christmas Season, and firecrackers here are not banned. Oooh poor dabawena. lols!

AND THAT'S WHEN my idea of traveling alone came. It was such a fool and fun idea. But who else could appreciate it but only those people who could experience it, right? Well, im planning to have this "FOOLISH TRIP" as what i call this, once a year.

NOW, here i go again. Another trip, another adventure. Excited but not that much to avoid conflicts on schedules (though my tickets are all set). Another 3 days to spend with myself. ILOILO, oooh for how many years (starting 2003) of wishing to be on your comfort, well i'll see you in few more days.

TREAT ME WELL, OK?

New Ways of Learning

Formal education is facing a formidable challenge in adapting to a media-saturated environment, in which traditional schooling methods are obsolete or irrelevant. Instead of assisting students in memorizing facts about the world or information storage, modern education should impart higher-order thinking skills such as analyzing and evaluating an overwhelming amount of information that is usually just a few clicks away. (Thoman and Jolls, 2005)

reference:

http://en.wikiversity.org/wiki/Why_is_Media_Literacy_Important

sentimientos

♥▬▬ ♥ ▬▬♥▬▬ ♥

y luego pensé que no sería
extraño que tiene un novio,
pero no hasta que me besó la mano

and then i thought

i wouldn't miss having a boyfriend,
but not until he kissed my hand

....

as long as ii know how

to LOVE

ii know ii stay ALIVE!!!

(i.will.survive)

kina-CAREER

...and then i thought this was all some sort of "easy.to.do.job" well actually, 50-50.
again unemployed wasn't in my vocabulary.
but instead got loaded (for me) with the subjects.
Now, here's my sched, and we'll see how will you deal with it if you were me [[:

MWF:
8:00-9:00am LINEAR ALGEBRA
9:00-10:00am COLLEGE ALGEBRA
10:00-7:00pm BREAK
7:00-8:00pm COLLEGE ALGEBRA

TTH:
8:30-10:00am APPLIED MATH FOR TECH.
10:30-12:00nn COLLEGE ALGEBRA
12:00-5:00pm BREAK
5:00-6:30pm COLLEGE ALGEBRA

SEE? too much for the break time.
too much [[: well, i should get start adjusting with it or else,
become unemployed, ugly and desperate.

"half day lang pud ko. im all yours" - g.a.b

(haha. you migi. you naughty)

BUZZY. beezie. BOOZZY

APRIL 27-30, 2010
my father's own definition of "sentimental tour". well, we had our summer vacation at tandag, surigao del sur, and for me, my 23rd (forever) birthday celebration [[: fun.fun.fun

APRIL 30, 2010
axl's 7th birthday. [[: iloveube

MAY 2, 2010
again, axl's mcdo kiddie crew graduation. congratz

MAY 3, 2010
kuya dondon's 31st birthday celebration [[: yepeiii yebert.

OOOoooOOOOoooOOOOoooOOOOoooOOOoooOOOoooOOO

BUZZY. BEEZIE. BOOZZY
...and really it turned out to be my SUMMER [[:
...done with 2 out of 8 DO'S in 2010
...MORE to come [[:

NEXT PLEASE...

bitterness is next to ugliness

again, as far as i can remember how i curse "her" name, how i plan to get "her" out on this world, how "she" met me, and how i met "her" with "him", then looking back seems so difficult to understand. oh well, this was caused by viewing the other woman's fs profile. well, basically, his woman. his forever. betch!

yeah. i knew it. the day i learned, the day he confessed, the day we tried and the day the forever end.

and you LVFM, here's for you.
5 years ago, just seems 5 days ago.
YOU, you sh*t. you assh*le, my assh*ole.
imissyou.stillmissingyou.beenmissingyou.
and i, i still like you, but really don't need you!

STRESS-FREE week

GREAT reward for all the things i made out last week. STRESS-FREE week. Nothing to worry about, especially tomorrows (masteral) class. NO REPORT (no stress on engr. junio's presentation tomz), NO EXAM (well, for calculus that would be a take-home and for number theory, next saturday would be).

WELL, no worries but then so much to think about. Like the things i wanted to buy for my salary (i.see.k's), Despidida (tama ba spelling?) with Maan and Percy, Retreat (haha) with my Wonderz and plan for my birthday coz i'll be celebrating it at Tandag.

SPEAKING of salary, i wonder what papa would ask if he saw my check only for Php23,200. haha. less Php800. "eh kasi naman absenot ako" HAHAiiZ. gotta do something with it. 800 is 800. I can have a bleach spa on that money. Gee! and that would be the first [[:

YOU and the MASSAGE

o2.19.2o1o

AFTER perfectly one week of the "first-time-after-more-than-a-decade" meet up, we met again. YOU, trying to console this sober heart which tries to disguise from somebody else's heart. 2 beers are enough to burst the ache deep inside me and though i expect of much sensible thoughts you'll have to brought up, quite disappointed, but then... BLISSFUL as i am, smelling your scent again.

o2.20.2010

JUST before expecting to have a double double time for my masteral subjects today, well it turned out i had only one class for the 10hours of staying at school. weew! but then, reward is just at the corner. after having class at the 5th floor of engineering bldg. (well, i just take a seat and read my adele parks book), momee and i went window shopping at victo then directly head at K1 for a massage. NICE... indeed relaxing [[:

I STILL SMELL HIM...

...ON the hanky he gave me o2.12.10 friday night.

everynight, off to bed
taking a smell
in the hanky on my head.

it smells like you,
it smells like me.
but there's no US,
REALLY ♥

credit: to my bestbud since prep g.a.b

10 THINGS TO DO IN 2010

happy new year and yes indeed a love love love 2010. i guess too late for my greetings [[: still hoping 2010 would deal me a smooth sailing career and hopefully the "love life" [[:

and since this is my first 2010 blog. just come up with my "10 things to do in 2010". so friends and family and whoever you might be, please if you have something to contribute on my list, don't hesitate to contact me [[: a'ryt kiddo???!

"10 THINGS TO DO IN 2010"
(subject to change without prior notice. haha)

(1) own a digital camera
♥ yes. sony cybershot.

(2) vacation at tandag, surigao del sur
♥ this april sabi ni papa

(3) learn to drive the pick-up
♥ i don't need a driving school and indeed "ako'y naghihirap na sa kamahalan ng gasolina kay yellow".

(4) finish my masteral degree
♥ that would be this summer or the 1st sem of s.y 2010-2011 [[:

(5) iloilo/bohol vacation or DUBAi much love
♥ could be on my own, friends company or someone else [[:

(6) 70 kgs weight
♥ hopefully

(7) curly hair please
♥ yes. di ako magpapagupit until the june of this year, and then the curly. bahala si papa [[:

(8) soon.

(9) soon.
(10) soon.

Changes are expected in your romantic goals today, Taurus, and this may involve endings and beginnings for you. Whether you are single or attached, a little break may be required for you today, in the form of a time out, or even a relationship ending. Instead of viewing this as an end to something good, consider this as an opportunity to let go of something that has not been working, and no longer has a positive purpose in your life. You are best when you are emotionally satisfied, and if you have not been receiving that in love, it is time to move on, and you will be better for it

SENSELESS

i miss writing here.
i miss my senseless side. haha.
later babe, later [[:

iT FEELS GOOD TO WRiTE

"He’s unavailable. And he’s a cheater! He’s nothing but a lifetime of unkept promises and heartache and oh, did I mention he’s a CHEATING PIECE OF CRAP. Tell me again why you want that, when you could have a man’s full attention, love, and heart?"

So here I wait--for my UNmarried man. I take it day by day and I need to work on the sadness I feel. While it feels as if I’m in mourning, there are no real tears right now. I sit back and observe that in shock. No tears? But there is a sense of a hollow heart, a bottomless pit in my stomach that is not going away. I'm beginning to love him. but I also love myself enough to finally let him go. While I intend for him to take action, I also know that I have no control over those results. So I wait.

I'm worthy of someone
... someone available.

WiSHLiST

♫ tweety clock
♫ tweety hotdog
♫ total sauna
♫ P1i / e61 / e71- ERASE
♫ new pantz
♫ radio player (for my room)
♫ blouse
♫ cp for sun (ordinary one)
♫ lingerie
♫ contax
♫ vs vanilla lace
♫ check-upz - DONE
♫ goodliness
♫ digicam sm
♫ havz (3)
♫ soap beauty box
♫ umbrella
♫ shoes parisian sm
♫

...that's all folkz [[: